Tuesday, March 31, 2009

pain

today i woke up feeling like complete shit i mean my whole body completely hurted so i decided to stretch which helped a little my back stoped hurting after awhile but my arms are still causing me pain this sucks so bad and someone special won't text me for the rest of the night cause i have papers to right which makes my night even worst.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Paint Ball

yesterday me and some people from r.o.t.c went out to play paintball which was the fucking best ever i might add. in all it was twelve of us and i was the only girl but i stuck it through with the guys.the worst part about it was that it started raining so we had to play most of our rounds inside. the good thing was that we played inside an abandoned building that used to be an insane asylum that is rumored to be haunted. one team was on the second floor while the second team was in the basement and we met or engaged on the first floor. those rounds were crazy cause it was so many rooms that u could hide in and hard for people to see u it was crazy i kept getting shot even after i was dead which hurted like hell espically since it was simi close range. i ended up getting six briuses one one both arms another on the side of my stomach and three on my right thigh two right next to each other. we played capture the flag in the woods and that was even funnier cause we had more room to play but we had to lay down in the wet cold mud my team lost both times during that and we had one final match before we left inside the house we used a human shield to win that game cause he wasn't afraid to get shot. im offically addicted to paintball now i want to play it all the time. i plan on getting my own paintball set before i go back home and im gonna have some fun i can't wait.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Public Service Announcement

MY F**KING LEGS ARE KILLING ME I RAN THREE MILES TO DAY FOR R.O.T.C THE FARTHEST I EVER RAN AS FAST AS I DID. THE WORST PART WAS WHEN I WAS RUNNING AND I HAD TO THROW UP BUT IT WASN'T COMING UP SO I WAS BASICALLY RUNNING AND GAGGING AT THE SAME TIME. BUT THE GOOD THING IS TOMORROW I GET TO PLAY PAINT BALL WITH SOME PEOPLE FROM R.O.T.C. WERE GONNA BE IN AN ABANDONED BUILDING AND EVERYTHING. P.S I'M STILL SINGLE WHICH IS AMAZING THAT I AM FOR THIS LONG BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN SINGLE FOR YEARS BUT IT FEELS SO GOOD. ON THE DOWN SIDE BEING SINGLE GETS LONELY SOMETIMES.
THANKS FOR READING THIS PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Physical Training/Tactical Training Day

ok so today since im in R.O.T.C (army) i had to do a physical training test also known as PT at 5:30 in the morning. my first one i completely failed it i only did nine push ups twenty four sit ups and my run in twenty eight minutes and fifty five seconds ( i was the last one to finish of course). this time i actually finished the run in twenty two minutes and thirty five seconds and did thirty six sit ups, unfortunatly i only did ten push ups because i lost my balance(WTF) and to make things worst i probably still failes the test because according to the army it still sucks. Going back to last saturday we had tactical training day. at 4:45 in the morning i had to be at the R.O.T.C building where we recieved our plastic M-16s and MREs which is the nasiest food you could ever eat. i had bbq ribs and a beef patty and they tasted exactly the same (like something somebody threw up and put back into the bag. anyway at 5:30 we had to ruck march like four miles with ruck bags on our back mine was like 10 pounds filled with unnessacary things that we wasn't gonna use. bad enough we had to march in the streets when its still dark outside but then we had to walk through woods that had ditches in them and was flooded with water i almost sprained my ankle falling into a hole that i couldn't see. at about 7:00 we was finally able to rest in the cold hard wet ground (lucky us) it started raining. im like wtf just completly fml cause im tired hungrey cold and now wet. we had to do stix lanes with different scenarios like ambushing, taking over a bunker, taking communication devices. those were fun we had to run through trees climb hills and alot of things but i had fun with that. the part i didn't like was when i had to pee in the woods (do u know how hard that is for a girl). next we had to do day and night land navigation.day nav was cool but night nav had me scared out of my mind. i seen to many scary movies i know wat happens in the woods at night and its not fun. i almost died going up a hill that was about thirty feet and almost falling from it. at the end of the day i went home with scrapes and bruises all over my body and three ticks. those things hurt like hell to take off but um yeah thats about it... so um i guess i'll write later.....uuuunnmmmm yeah soooo like bye

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

sterotypes

sterotypes need to stop immediatly i mean their stupid and a conversation that me and my friends had totally pissed me off ok so according to my friends (the ones that are black) im trying to be white or im a "oreo" because instead of knowing every single rap song and wearing urban gear everyday i would rather listen to alternative and wear preppy clothes. ok yeah so what i would rather listen to good charlotte and linkin park then some rapper rappin about the same thing that every rapper do. money sex cars clothes and jewlry sorry if i get bored with it. my other friends ( the white ones) totally agreed with me and said that it was stupid cause kids at thier school use to say that the white students were trying to be black cause they listened to rap. if your gonna be ignorant don't do it in public keep the comments to yourself . some people just have an open range of music that they like and i am one of them. its other sterotypes that need to be talked about but it would take a whole book to cover them all

first time

ok i signed up for this blog a few months ago but this is my first time actually writing something. since i m new to this i don't know exactly to write i guess i can go with how i feel my life is going right now. so my life is pretty good i have good friends im doing well in school and im pretty happy. my heart on the other hand is in horrible condition not in the medical sense but relationship wise. i mean i been hurt so many times and sometimes more than once by the same people. i can't help it though because i wear my heart on my sleeve and im a sucker for love. its just that when i really like someone or im in a relationship i put my all into it and in the end im always the one that get hurts. because of that i now suffer from depression and panic attacks. im currently single and right now for my sake i think that its for the best. right now im just scared to love again and have a very strong shield around my heart that i don't know when im gonna be strong enough to let it down. wow this is kind of depressing for a first blog but oh well shit happens